hello!

We are the Penumbrial Ecosystem, an AuDHD and DID system.

hobbies

Art!

I've been drawing since I could hold a crayon. Art has always been one of my central life passions. I grew up fascinated by the wolves and warrior cats fandom artists community of youtube; BlueKyoKitty, Darkkokiri, Allikatnya, TribbleOfDoom, Flightfootwarrior - that whole crowd. I had my own OCs. I'm grateful my parents were supportive of my artistic inclination.
One of the first books I recall reading on my own was Inuyasha. Cardcaptor Sakura was one of the earliest things on TV I can remember seeing. Growing up when I did, there was an endless suply of manga and anime available to watch/read for free online and I drowned myself in it!
So anime has always been a huge inspiration.
I consider myself a multimedia artist, I like charcoal, paints (watercolor, oil, postercolor, acrylic), pastel, color pencil, digital, and I just like art generally.

I play a little bit of piano and other instruments, just for fun
Learning languages! I want to get back into it again but besides my native English I also know a fair bit of Japanese and I've spent time studying/know small amounts of Southern Lushootseed, Spanish, and Arabic.

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likes

I love music! some favorites:

dislikes

the Ecosystem

Hi! I am Xactrey. I am one of the primary system hosts. I consider myself the "space-brain-web-operator" of the internal system, and function within information. Conceptually, I am a computer and about 12 years old. In headspace I look a lot like L from Death Note, just younger. Sorta. The form varies.
I wanted to introduce myself because I do most of the designing for OS and am most involved in the tech computer stuff.
Our system operates a lot through blending and has many polyfragmented or polyfrag-adjacent features of complexity, but our alter count is relatively low at about 30-40 tracked members
We are working towards functional multiplity. We have been in therapy since 2022, consistently although with a few different therapists along the way. We were formally diagnosed with DID this year in February i think of 2026. We were previously diagnosed with OSDD almost exactly a year prior in 2025.
I have detailed my experience of coming to realize our systemhood, and I plan to do so here. Eventually.
When I was young I always wanted my own website. There were so many presets. I did make so many, honestly. I wonder if any still float around. "making my mark" - for all my life, I have had this urge towards "mark-making".

Idk where I was going with that. i got distracted. Being a system is frustrating because I am always vascilating between core deeply held beliefs and that is exhausting. Not just having inconsistent beliefs, but the core of what makes you who you are, gets unplugged